Name: Anonymous 2007-09-03 20:04 ID:IY8i2Xuf
I don't know whats wrong with me 4chan. I seem to be having these intense moodswings, which really don't happen that often but are a real bitch to deal with. Some days (rarely) I'm happy to be alive and love things about life both good and bad. I'm grateful for being alive and I'm glad that I have so many amazing people in my life.
Other days (often) I feel really depressed. I hate thinking about the future and what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. I feel like it doesn't matter anyway because I'm just gonna die anyway. I feel like just giving up all together and just waiting for death or killing myself, but my religion forbids it. I hate the people in my life and instead of the positives about them and all the good times we had, all I can think about is how they leech off me and are just always wanting me to do favors for them. I hate knowing them and instead of calling them up I avoid any contact with them whatsoever.
The majority of the days I feel nothing. I just go through the motions and laugh at things, but I don't really feel alive. I can't tell anyone how I feel because I'm a guy and I don't wanna look like a complete pussy. I wish I had some professional to talk to like a psychiatrist and if he could tell me if what I'm going through is normal, but if I go to a psychiatrist everyone's gonna think I'm a weirdo. I have all these doubts and fears in my mind, but no one to even hint at them with. They just circle my mind all day and until I go to sleep wondering what I'm gonna do.
I just wanna know does anybody else go through this and if I am a head case whats what I have called?
Other days (often) I feel really depressed. I hate thinking about the future and what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. I feel like it doesn't matter anyway because I'm just gonna die anyway. I feel like just giving up all together and just waiting for death or killing myself, but my religion forbids it. I hate the people in my life and instead of the positives about them and all the good times we had, all I can think about is how they leech off me and are just always wanting me to do favors for them. I hate knowing them and instead of calling them up I avoid any contact with them whatsoever.
The majority of the days I feel nothing. I just go through the motions and laugh at things, but I don't really feel alive. I can't tell anyone how I feel because I'm a guy and I don't wanna look like a complete pussy. I wish I had some professional to talk to like a psychiatrist and if he could tell me if what I'm going through is normal, but if I go to a psychiatrist everyone's gonna think I'm a weirdo. I have all these doubts and fears in my mind, but no one to even hint at them with. They just circle my mind all day and until I go to sleep wondering what I'm gonna do.
I just wanna know does anybody else go through this and if I am a head case whats what I have called?