Don't see the point of being alive.

Having never felt love or closeness with another person leaves you truly empty inside. I feel unlovable, unwantable, truly alone in the world. Even knowing that a woman could possibly find me good enough to be in a relationship with would lift a huge weight from my shoulders. Makes me feel like there is just something completely screwed up that makes me unwanted by anyone else. It's a profound feeling of absolute loneliness, and it's killing me.

I guess this probably sounds quite pathetic, but the idea of sharing some kind of romantic intimacy with a woman feels like I would be reaching heaven. It's very weird to explain, I can't even fathom what it would feel like, it's like I would be reaching some kind of ultimate pleasure. I literally feel like I would pass out from the joy of just laying in bed holding a girlfriend. A connection like that would ease my soul so much. I'm probably screwing myself up badly by building it up this much in my mind, but I can't help that. See how fucked up I am?

I've actually fallen asleep holding onto my pillow imagining it was another person.

I'm a sexy hamburger.

Never a girlfriend, never had sex, not even a peck on the cheek. It is one thing to have loved and lost, and be sour about it, but I haven't even experienced that. After all these years I've gotten to where I think about nothing else, and nothing else matters. I no longer care about anything. I have no interests. What's the point of an interest if there's no one to share it with? At the same time I think if I did fall in love and she betrayed me (seems pretty common these days) I'd have no choice but to kill myself as I couldn't handle the pain. With no friends, no hobbies, and almost no family left I don't have any real support.

>>2
stop trolling.

I'm a sexy hamburger.

guess its time for you to become gay

>>5
stop trolling.

Fail. Emofags are fail.