Name: Anonymous 2007-09-03 0:48 ID:XYntakq0
Having never felt love or closeness with another person leaves you truly empty inside. I feel unlovable, unwantable, truly alone in the world. Even knowing that a woman could possibly find me good enough to be in a relationship with would lift a huge weight from my shoulders. Makes me feel like there is just something completely screwed up that makes me unwanted by anyone else. It's a profound feeling of absolute loneliness, and it's killing me.
I guess this probably sounds quite pathetic, but the idea of sharing some kind of romantic intimacy with a woman feels like I would be reaching heaven. It's very weird to explain, I can't even fathom what it would feel like, it's like I would be reaching some kind of ultimate pleasure. I literally feel like I would pass out from the joy of just laying in bed holding a girlfriend. A connection like that would ease my soul so much. I'm probably screwing myself up badly by building it up this much in my mind, but I can't help that. See how fucked up I am?
I've actually fallen asleep holding onto my pillow imagining it was another person.
I guess this probably sounds quite pathetic, but the idea of sharing some kind of romantic intimacy with a woman feels like I would be reaching heaven. It's very weird to explain, I can't even fathom what it would feel like, it's like I would be reaching some kind of ultimate pleasure. I literally feel like I would pass out from the joy of just laying in bed holding a girlfriend. A connection like that would ease my soul so much. I'm probably screwing myself up badly by building it up this much in my mind, but I can't help that. See how fucked up I am?
I've actually fallen asleep holding onto my pillow imagining it was another person.