Name: Anonymous 2007-09-03 0:26 ID:2JAdEgCc
my life sucks...im completely alone. i have no friends...i dont even have family to talk to. i live with my parents and grandparents and aunts and uncles. we have 3 houses in a row, tons of family but no one for me to talk to. the only person that noticed i was depressed was my grandma from my mother's side. she asked me today why i was looking depressed and walking around all day the last few days. everyone else was just doing there own thing. my grandma only knows how to speak chinese tho, and i dont know how so i cant talk to her. my depression is getting worse and starting to turn to anger again, i feel its the only way for me to let it out. i tried talking to my dad, he always gives the worse advice and doesnt understand anything, and so does my mom. my dad tried talking to me just now...i got back from class today, i try talking to people and it never works out...i never have anything interesting to say, i dont know how people do it...i havent had a friend in 4-5 years. i talked to my dad about not being able to hold a friendship with anyone(pretty pathetic) and he just goes on talking about how when he does real estate he used to go around peoples houses and asking them if they want to sell there house and that you just have to learn to face rejection and move on. when you go around knocking peoples doors asking them that obviously your going to get darn rejected almost all the time, and those are potential customers you'll see for business only for a short while and then never see them again. that had nothing to do with making and keeping friends. why the heck do i keep talking to that retard. i just got frustrated talking to him again and hit something, then he threatened to kick me out of the house and told my grandma(my dads side one) that im just mad cuz i dont have any friends, and she comes in and tells me that its wrong to get mad and hit stuff...theres just no way for me to let anything out of me...theres just no reason for me to keep living...i dont know why im still alive when theres nothing for me to look foward to...