i want it all to stop...

today as i lay in my bed, i began to cry. everything inside me hurt. and i had my first ever thought of suicide.

My depression began as uncertainty as i began my teens. confused at life. I've never talked to anyone about it, ever. my depression grew, as i kept hiding it. i feel so alone. I'm almost 19 now and my depression has gotten alot worst, i cry silently at night in my bed, unable to sleep. There are many reasons in my life that hurt, but sometimes i feel extremely sad, just because i do, not for any reason in particular.

I am... ashamed of this, and i've never talked or hinted to anyone about my problem. everyone thinks i'm fine. i come off as a happy and arrogant human being, but deep down i'm hurting alot. i want to seek help from anyone, a therapist, but i am too scared to reveal myself.

i'm so alone right now, but yet i dont know how to get help... i'm afraid, i don't want to do this for teh rest of my life, i don't want to feel this hurt anymore.

please give me advice on how to get help, i have alot of trouble of talking to people about it, i just pretend nothing is wrong, and im happy...

myspace fag

Give me your AIM or something, I am bored and wanna talk this out with you.

1. Get a gun
2. Buy one bullet
3. Get paper and pen
4. Write suicide letter
5. Put bullet in gun and cock it
6. Put gun in mouth and close your eyes
7. Pull trigger
8. ???
9. Profit

cry.

why are so many ppl comin to lounge posting suicide shit

>>6
cuz its what emo people do
and its funny when we pretend to be emo
because emo people suck lol

you write very well, should become a writeer !

fake your suicide and then steal the money your family got from life insurance....