Name: Anonymous 2007-08-30 23:48 ID:v9NTQXCz
why shouldn't i be able to. why should the people that care about me be a reason to live? i'm not living for me, why should i live for them? i can't talk with people i don't know how to i am so lonely, i have tried over andover in couneselling, therapy etct. etc.. i've been talking pills nothing helps i'm only able to be me when i'm down like this. getting better is getting worse, i am not as i was but to save myself is to stay myself, die. i never asked to be born. i can't kill myself but i can't keep living. how can i expect to keep trying when i've been unhappy my wjhole life. why can't i be like everyone, i look back at my life and then think about the next 20 years and i can't take it, i have scars all over me because i put them there, i am in living in hell, drugs and alcohol but the thing is i was never happy before this. my family used to always comment on how i am never happy as a kid and i am stuck i don't know how i hate this. has anyone every felt claustrophobic being alive? i feel this everyday, i want out i want out i want out but i am a coward and will die slowly. does anyone know how common it is for people to die of starvation? or is it dehydration. i don't want to die why are we here i'm sorry this is more of a rant than anything