It just all messed up!! ALWAYS.

Ok guys, i'm just really tired of doing this on my own. And i really need some help. Because i'm starting to think about suicide again, at the moment i definitely don't plan on it, but i can't believe i'm thinking about it AGAIN.

I had a lot of problems from 13-18, friendship, money, career.... dreams.

I would cry at night, every day. I had too many problems. Worst, i have many different personalities, and have a problem telling anyone!

In the end, at the end of year 12, i dropped all my friends, many of them dropped me. I was at my lowest, addicted to a game with no friends, and recently failed a whole semester.

But i picked myself up, all on my own, because i had no one but myself. I was NOT going to ask for my family, who a) knows nothing about me b) recently made me reject my one chance to go overseas and experience life, it was my dream.

But i did it, i got myself together. I was gaining weight, doing better in school. But then recently, my brother broke up with his girlfriend, because he liked another girl and didn't want to cheat on his girl friend, he told me and we got really close for the first time. It felt WEIRD.

Oh... well... that's cool about your brother. Congrats.

By "many different personalities", I think you mean "moodswings". You don't sound like you have Dissociateive Identity Disorder at all.

Your problems are from a pileup of stress. Just go and concentrate on everyday activities to distract yourself from suicidal thoughts or something.