Name: Anonymous 2007-08-29 23:01 ID:hL/nCDjA
everyday i plan out a new way to kill myself, each time i become more efficient and come closer to carrying out the plan. i want to die, i do not enjoy life in the slightest way. nothing is enjoyable for me, except this one girl, but since she is in love with my best freind i gave up on her. i dont know what to do, im never happy, i cant remember the last time i laughed without having to physically and painfully try. i am happy when i am around the girl, but that only makes it worse because when she leaves i remember how she does not love me the same as i love her, i feel like a wuss, i often cry myself to sleep, i often scare the crap out of my freinds with sudden outbreaks of rage or sorrow. its ruining my life. im 15 and i weigh around 90 pounds, i havent had anything to eat for three days now. im not anorexic or anything, im just not hungry. i cant sleep at night. i hate humans. they all just have so many problems. nobody wants to be around me because im always so melancholy. someone. please. anyone help me.