halp?

I'm 26 live in a small country in europe, but am originally from another country in europe, so the one I'm living in is pretty much racist about the one I am from. and I'm sick of it! it's hard to find either job or apartment due to my "so exotic name", blablah.

another issue is, my parents abandoned me. they never had trust in me anyway and at some point I stopped seeing them as parents either. one day, in a fight they told me how they don't see me as a son, etc. - ever since I refused contact (my mom called me several times, she blamed me, for my father's bad condition).

after a while, I had some sick relationships, never could develop friendship and whatnot.

so, I'm now without job, without money, without a place to stay (and that's a WHOLE other story!), without family / friends. plus there's this racism going on here, that keeps my agression on a very high level.

I won't start babbling about that I think I wanna kill myself or other similar already mentioned speeches. I just wanna hear any solution / reason / suggestion why keep on messing around.

thanks in advance.

suicides is always an option

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not helpful, >>I just wanna hear any solution / reason / suggestion why to keep on living.

suicides?

seriously though, 4chan isn't the place to go to for questions like this... Just a bunch of jackasses that really deserve to die themselves.