Name: Anonymous 2007-08-29 8:53 ID:nIr6pB1K
i jsut wanted to note that im not feeling my best. im a guy who isnt very manly. i dont know how to. my attempts keep failing. im just so tired of myself. i dont like who i see in the mirror. i wish i knew if there were really a God waiting on the other end to hurl me into hell for killing myself. otherwise, i will be lying peacfully at the bottom of the ocean. dont have to reply, im not killing myself anytime soon. just airing my pain. i cry at night. i wish i knew for sure if there is a God out there waiting to hurl me into hell. i just hate myself for my inability to pull myself together. im not killing myself, i just would if i knew the finality of the after life. until then, i will cry at night, and walk tough at day . cute.