Name: ShyGuy 2007-08-29 8:49 ID:jfxnsVXE
I seem to be a rare type of guy to find. I'm quiet, really dumbstruck, and just not an exciting person. I have a brother that is probably one of the smartest people I know and has a insane work ethic, but yet I am the laziest person you will ever meet (if you ever meet me)
I don't understand how he is so outgoing, extremely smart and now rich, alwways had something new to do...and I have nothing. I am not that outgoing, im more reserved to myself, not smart at all, and well lets just say I have a minimum wage job (im 17).
I have been dealing with this fact my whole life but have not really realized this until the past few months. I can only meet certain types of people, people that will actually come up to me and try to make friends. At work I only get along with one person there and he is my age, I can't seem to get along with people older than me (eg. my brother)
At family gatherings, I don't say a word unless I'm asked a question, and my answer is usually a "yes" or a "no" followed by no other words. Everyone thinks that I'm useless.
I wish I could be more like my brother and say things that I wouldnt normally in front of a group of people such as my family. I rarely talk to my parents about anything....I haven't ever had a girlfriend before, and I haven't joined a school activity in any of my four years of high school. I get decent grades but I really forget really quickly what I learn and no matter how hard I try to forget anyways.... See, if I had grades going for me (get all A's in AP courses, etc) then I would not be here writing this post . but since I am not in high courses (regular classes) AND I am a loser, I got suicide on my mind. I always thought of it as A.) Be smart and be labeled a nerd all my life or B.) Be funny, charming, and a ladies man, but be dumb. Any of these two choices I will take but since I have NEITHER of them makes me think. I know these ideas are very weird and are not normally thought of, but this is waht I think about in my spare time.....
I don't understand how he is so outgoing, extremely smart and now rich, alwways had something new to do...and I have nothing. I am not that outgoing, im more reserved to myself, not smart at all, and well lets just say I have a minimum wage job (im 17).
I have been dealing with this fact my whole life but have not really realized this until the past few months. I can only meet certain types of people, people that will actually come up to me and try to make friends. At work I only get along with one person there and he is my age, I can't seem to get along with people older than me (eg. my brother)
At family gatherings, I don't say a word unless I'm asked a question, and my answer is usually a "yes" or a "no" followed by no other words. Everyone thinks that I'm useless.
I wish I could be more like my brother and say things that I wouldnt normally in front of a group of people such as my family. I rarely talk to my parents about anything....I haven't ever had a girlfriend before, and I haven't joined a school activity in any of my four years of high school. I get decent grades but I really forget really quickly what I learn and no matter how hard I try to forget anyways.... See, if I had grades going for me (get all A's in AP courses, etc) then I would not be here writing this post . but since I am not in high courses (regular classes) AND I am a loser, I got suicide on my mind. I always thought of it as A.) Be smart and be labeled a nerd all my life or B.) Be funny, charming, and a ladies man, but be dumb. Any of these two choices I will take but since I have NEITHER of them makes me think. I know these ideas are very weird and are not normally thought of, but this is waht I think about in my spare time.....