Girls I like don't like me

I work 7 days a week (sometimes) so I don't go out much. I don't drink..so i don't go to bars. I meet a lot of girls online. Well it seems like the girls I like or date online, can't deal with the distance...I'm always the stronger one that doesn't care about distance, probably because my last real girlfriend was in 1999, so bein alone is not unusual for me. I'm ALWAYS the one who tries to make things work out. A lot of girls I meet are under 18 or else they lie about their age. Speaking of lying about age..I met this girl who told me she was 19..well 4 days afterwards she told was 13 and at this time we were "dating" and she's telling me that she wants to have a family with me and marry me. (and yes she knows my age). I can't deal with this crap anymore. I'm so depressed and wanna die (all the time) i'm so alone..sooo alone.

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"I met this girl who told me she was 19..well 4 days afterwards she told was 13"

Dude, for fuck's sake, you should really be able to tell 13 and 19-year-olds apart. I mean really, how can you not tell them apart??

"I swear each year my life keeps on going downhill."

All of us have/have had/will have a rough patch in our lives. That's just...life! But, remember that nothing's forever, and if you just keep hanging on, everything will sort itself out eventually and better times will come.

"most girls my age are already married or have kids"

I doubt that's true, and even so, if they have kids already, then so what? You could become a nice and badly needed stepfather for some boy/girl.

"I love kids and I want kids, but in order for me to do that I need a girlfriend."

I don't know, get a girlfriend with a kid? According to you there should be oodles of women your age complete with little kids.

"Every time someone (female) hurts me I cut myself or threaten to cut myself."

And every time a male hurts you you masturbate fiercely while recalling that sweet feeling of humiliation that good-looking guy caused you? You're just prejudiced against women because they have been - at least according to you - treating you like shit. Mister, there are many women who would love to have a decent, respectful, loving and nice guy as a boyfriend, and you seem to fit the bill.

But the awful truth is that you won't get a girlfriend until you stop generalizing and hating women for every disagreeable word or gesture they might say or give in your presence. You have to get over that and start thinking of women as your equals and not demons with boobs.

Oh, and in b4 someone starts to blame the OP's mother for his problems.