I can't explain this to myself!!!

I want to sleep with a crack fagdict, but at the same time I don't.

I just figured it out, my friends are saying I'm slumming, like hitting on dudes from the slums... I just realized it was true. He was riding my tail all last night, must've asked every bouncer where I was at least 3 times. He told me last night that him and his mom spent like 30 grand in the last two years on crack, he fucking admitted to it! Everybody is saying hes crazy now, I don't want anybody to know that I want to poke his ass..

I know shes hyper and needy right now, but I still want it. I feel like I can't say no!

Somebody slap some sense into me!