suicidal thoughts

They hit me hard all of a sudden out of NOwhere about half an hour ago. So, I talked to someone I hadn't talked to in a long time and tried to 'catch up' to distract myself.
Please give me some more ideas on what to do.
Thank you.

>>49
Loser?  I've missed out on Clownifornia and that's a BLESSING.  If missing out on the land of "fruit and nuts" means I'm trash, then I'm trash and I'm loving it.  You Clownifornian "winners" can just sign another mortgage, have a Coke and smile, and STFU.  I hear Clownifornian weather is very easy on the homeless.

>>50
Whatcha got, a reading disability?  I'VE NEVER BEEN TO CLOWNIFORNIA.  Read that over and over until you fucking GET IT.