Life, for me fucking sucks.

kay, I just wanted to ask what you guys would do in my situation.

I'm 14, freshman in high school. I live with my brother, three sisters, mother, and grandmother. Every day for me, is hell. My daily routine is: waking up at 5am, going to school at 8am, coming home at 4pm, being forced to clean, getting scolded, then falling asleep at about 11pm-1am. My life has always been hell. Even my childhood was hell. I don't have any childhood friends, because whenever I made friends, I ended up moving out of state. I was always in trouble, for even the smallest things. Always got accused of things, and yelled at. All of my older family members say I'm spoiled, because my parent(s) buy me things, but what the fuck is the point if you're getting bitched at, and cursed at every day of your life? Well, getting back on topic, my life sucks. Recently, everything has been going downward. I've been losing touch with more friends, becoming even more distant with my family. I try my hardest in school, and at home, but that only wears me out more. I have no social life, outside of school, except for my friends that I talk to online (because I don't live near them anymore). I'm too pissed/disappointed/depressed to type anymore.

But, tell me, what would you do?

>>31 here again

also never swear, always be polite and explain everything in a calm logical manner. it takes time but the less emotional you are and the more emotional they are the more likely they will think they are in the wrong

also never keep things behind closed doors, pay attention and remember everything people say and be sure to tell everyone out loud as quicjly as possible aftr a situation ends

you will experience strong personal feelings yourself especially fear, but you have to learn to pause for a while before your next act so they do not affect your decision making process, browsing /b/ and forcing yourself to look at gore and scat is a good way to desensitise yourself

take a utilitarian approach to your education, study hard and quietly in class unafraid of asking for your teacher's help, then after class force yourself on groups of friends in polite conversation and when they reject you start whining and complaining about how people are fucking with you and don't let them have a moments peace. not because you want ot become friends with them, but to keep yourself in the social spotlight

eventually you will learn there is nothing to fear from other people and you will find it entertaining, the trick is to always be right, you are forced into that situation by other people and it is their fault and they must respond to you positively because they are the ones who put you in that situation

this is difficult at first and you make mistakes, you just have to be clever and eventually you will be so distant from certain irrelevant elements of reality that have been drilled into you, you won't care and even though people will fuck with you more for a period of time you won't feel a thing because you finally realise it actually doesn't matter