I am about to kill myself (serious topic)

I've been in a really bad situation lately. I've fallen into a deep depression. i've been drinking heavily. I'm to the point where I just don't care anymore. i don't know how yet but i'm going to do it. I got in an accident this weekend. I have an insurance claim now. I recently lost my job that I worked so hard at. I had to drop all my college classes because I just couldn't keep up and work full time. No one here will probably understand the way i feel. I dont think you trust in my self righteous suicide I cry when angels deserve to die In my self righteous suicide I cry when angels deserve to DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Father father father father Father into your hand I comend my spirit Father into your hand why have you forsaken me in your eyes Forsaken me in your thoughts
Forsaken me in your heart
Forsaken me ohh
Trust in my self righteous suicide I cry when angels deserve to die In my self righteous suicide I cry when angels deserve to die

this is really the wrong place to look for people to not encourage you to commit suicide. The only reason you would tell a whole bunch of people is for the attention they would hopefully give you and convince you not to do it.

99.9% of 4chan posters are complete fucking douche bags.

as part of the .1% remaining, I'm telling you not to do it. There are various reasons, but just...don't.