I am about to kill myself (serious topic)

I've been in a really bad situation lately. I've fallen into a deep depression. i've been drinking heavily. I'm to the point where I just don't care anymore. i don't know how yet but i'm going to do it. I got in an accident this weekend. I have an insurance claim now. I recently lost my job that I worked so hard at. I had to drop all my college classes because I just couldn't keep up and work full time. No one here will probably understand the way i feel. I dont think you trust in my self righteous suicide I cry when angels deserve to die In my self righteous suicide I cry when angels deserve to DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Father father father father Father into your hand I comend my spirit Father into your hand why have you forsaken me in your eyes Forsaken me in your thoughts
Forsaken me in your heart
Forsaken me ohh
Trust in my self righteous suicide I cry when angels deserve to die In my self righteous suicide I cry when angels deserve to die

This is obviously a joke, note the System of a Down lyrics.