just had my first kiss

i know im 24 and it's beyond pathetic but i had my first kiss tonight. the thing is, it was like a joke.. a pity kiss and not from someone who really cares about me, and it was really fast... i kinda wish it didnt happen

what was your first kiss like?

My first kiss?
I kissed a fat girl when I was in the mental ward. I made her promise to kiss me for some reason. It was just a peck on the lips, nothing saucy. Not even anything that satisfying. I think kissing might be overrated or at least 'not my thing', but maybe that's sour grapes.

Me and this girl cuddled all the time though, since she was chubby it was so comfy. It sucked when she started getting an IV drip for drugs, because she was depressed, and we couldn't cuddle.

Patients weren't supposed to touch each other, so it was a very sketchy thing we were doing, but somehow we got away with it and the staff turned a blind eye. The other patients made fun of us a bit though.

In the hospital I started smoking temporarily, I managed to persuade her to come outside and we lay in the grass, I held her hand for a short while when we went back in.

Then she left and I never saw her again, she didn't want to stay in contact after. We wouldn't have ended up going anywhere anyways and she probably wouldn't be the healthiest person to have as a girlfriend.

It was the farthest I've ever gone with a girl.

I actually cared for her a lot, she was my cuddle buddy. ;_;
I hope she's doing okay now.