Name: Anonymous 2006-10-27 19:48
I was, like many of you now are, an otaku. At the time, I didn't actually KNOW I was an otaku per se, but that was only for lack of knowledge of the word. Those were somehow blissful days, though. I knew I'd never get a date, so when I repetedly got shot down, it's not like I had any other expectations. I had no friends, so it's not like I felt bad spending my Saturday nights at home playing video games and watching X-files reruns. Though I was far from happy, they were easy days. All I had to do was scrape by with the bare minimum to stay alive. Nobody cared about me, so anything I did hardly mattered to anybody, even myself.
Then the unthinkable happened. I met people like me, fans and nerds alike, but they were somehow.... socialized.
And even more unthinkable, they actually accepted me and gave me hope for the first time in my life. From there, things got better. I learned how to talk to girls, how to have friends, how to actually make my fandom the center of my life but not completely let it take over.
And now, I have girls all over available to me. I can blend in seamlessly with normal people. I can talk about my fandom without going overboard about it, but I don't have to act ashamed of it, either.
So my confession? I hate you. I hate you fucking fanboys who can't lay of the fandom for one god damn second. I hate you, also, because you remind me of what I once was, and what a part of me still yearns to be.
Then the unthinkable happened. I met people like me, fans and nerds alike, but they were somehow.... socialized.
And even more unthinkable, they actually accepted me and gave me hope for the first time in my life. From there, things got better. I learned how to talk to girls, how to have friends, how to actually make my fandom the center of my life but not completely let it take over.
And now, I have girls all over available to me. I can blend in seamlessly with normal people. I can talk about my fandom without going overboard about it, but I don't have to act ashamed of it, either.
So my confession? I hate you. I hate you fucking fanboys who can't lay of the fandom for one god damn second. I hate you, also, because you remind me of what I once was, and what a part of me still yearns to be.