love

what the fuck is love... why do I fall in love with some girl.. it does me no good. I have this grandiose image of everything working out someway and.. its bullshit. I hate myself. I fucking hate myself. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I'm fucked up in the head. Maybe not as much as all you loli/cp people, but damn I'm fucked. I'm obsessed about this girl, insanely obsessed, she gets into my head like nothing I've ever known. I swear to god its out of control, I don't know what the fuck to do. I can't get rid of her even if I wanted to, which I don't, but the point is it just doesn't make any sense. Why the fuck do I think shes something special? why do I feel like I owe her something, that I should try for something.. fuck. I'm fucked up. Thanks for listening.

>>1
Just remember at the end of the day she's just another person.  And if you don't know her very well right now, you'll probably come to find that she isn't all that and a bag of chips.  She might even be pretty fucking annoying.
Anyway, don't ever think that you owe her anything.  Don't think that you have to do or buy her something just to make her like you.  If anything you should flip the situation around and make her persue you.