i don't really have any friends

i hang out with people but i don't feel like they're proper friends - there isn't anyone i know that i regularly make plans to do stuff every week or just talk on the phone with. it's always the occasional party, get together or movies but i don't really have a close bond with these people.

for the better part of my life i've always felt an existential lonliness even when i'm engaged in social activities around other people because i've never felt that there was someone i could truly be honest about things like my problems, and not trivial ones. for one year i was close friends with someone but we've moved apart. there probably isn't any solution to this, after all, man is a lonely creature, and i've pretty much accepted this.. but it would be nice if there were people who know what im talkin about!

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that's just the thing. knowing lots of people isnt very fufilling, nor is having a 'bangin social life'. it's much better to be recognised for and understood as who you actually are as opposed to the pleasant public face you put out. i am not a child molestor who wants to embraced, but i am a 4channer with unconventional tastes! i can't spout off about my fucked up interests to people around me without the risk of being offensive. but here it's ok..