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ok, i don't really know where else to post this, cuz it doesn't really fit into the topic, but i wanted to say something so i guess this is the best place to do it. i always get a great arguement on this board.

when i see an attractive female, the first thing that pops into my mind isn't sex. i want to get to know her, find out what kind of person she is. it's kinda like this with everyone that i meet.

i have had a few girlfriends, and one serious one that i moved across the country to be with.

i'm back at home now and trying to get back into the dating scene again, but i seem to become more of a friend to females completely on accident. i've tried to be normal around them and just have a conversation, but at some point i become nothing more than a friend.

i feel as though i should have been born a female. not that i want the cock, but i suppose what you could say is that i feel that i get along with females better. not being your average asshat, but i'm pretty sure, if things were how they should have been, i would have been at least a bisexual.

i am usually unseen in dreams that i have, but when i am i am normally female. i think that the female body is absolutely beautiful. i am told by MANY of my male friends that they wish i was a girl, or that if i was a girl they would do this to me or that to me. i've also been told multiple times by my male friends that i look "beautiful" or
"pretty." it kinda weirds me out, and has been for a long time, but maybe it's just the way that i am?

i do not find males attractive in any way. i am constantly hanging out with both sexes, and get along with both quite well. females interest me, though. i understand where they are coming from more than i understand where guys are coming from.

is something wrong with me?

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body image: let's see. i'm 5'5", 130lbs, tanned skin, normal build, curly black hair.

i don't want to look like a girl. if i wanted to look like a girl i would consider the whole sexchange thing. i enjoy being male, and enjoy doing your normal male things.

i'm short, so more than anything i get the "cute" thing from chicks. i enjoy hanging out with boy sexes, though i feel that most of the males that i know don't give a shit enough for me to actually have a conversation with them, so i converse more with females.

i grew up with my mom, and her and i have the kinda relationship where we talk about shit. it's just kinda the way that i was raised. i more or less am just looking for a companion type person, ya know, who i can just fuck around with all day and have a great time rather than bring in all the bullshit and fuck everything up.

before now i have always gone for insane girls. i can't explain. i just seem to be attracted to them. all that's come out of it is bullshit, and i'm really sick of all of that shit. problem with normal girls is that they're just fucking retarded. i've met a few girls who i thought were just awesome, but 9/10 of them are lesbians [or become lesbians]. the other 1/10 are either too far away [i live in louisiana. every major city is like 1:30 away from the next] or are just having too much fun being single to want to waste that on getting a boyfriend.

i've been told by many of my female friends that i'm the perfect boyfriend, but of course, we're just friends, so that means jack shit coming from them.

ahh what the fuck.