Ugh, Women

I'll try to make this less asinine than I did on /b/.

There's this girl a really like.  I've felt this way for a while, but could never actually make a move or anything, partly because I was afraid she wouldn't be my friend anymore, but mostly because she's almost always seeing someone else & is unavailable.  However, I've done everything BUT make a move on her.  I've been nothing but nice for two years.  I've gone out of my way to do nice thigns for her all the time.  I've dropped what I was doing or ditched my other friends to spend time with her.  I've helped her with things, even when I didn't want to, & supported her when she was having problems.  I was even kind & supportive at times when she ocassionally wasn't being very nice.  Yes, some of these are things friends should do anyhow, but I always treated her special, putting her before anyone else, even myself.  (And to those of you with a one-track mind, no, I wasn't jsut being nice to try to score with her.  Yes, she's attractive, but I can get meaningless sex anywhere, I actually cared about this girl.)

So, after breaking up with her latest BF, who does she start dating?  My roommate!  He was never outright mean to her or anything, but he was enver particularly nice to her, either.  In fact, she asked him out once, & he rejected her, really hurting her feelings.  And now she's crawling back to him!

I hate them both right now, but I think I ahte myself more.  I jsut fail at life.

Well I also got a female friend who I also like. So she was on like a major holiday in Asia for like 2 months. During that time I called her once n a while (through skype etc so didnt cost me a bundle) or rather she called me too. Helped her choose where to go during her hols, sort her roaming call etc etc.

So she came back last week. Ends up the first people she goes meet up is her girlfriends. Not me who has been there for me. Yes granted that now I got a new job that has me finish by 6pm. usually I see her at like afternoons but thats not possible now with the job. So she tells me thats too late for her to meet up. 

Yet with her girlfriends she is willing to meet up at like 8pm. I freaking hate being relegated like this.