Who here has been single all their life.

（´Д｀;;) i get really nervous around girls for some reason, especially when i like them. Is it game over for me?

Sigh... women...
I find it's so hard to interact with them and truly know what they're thinking.  For instance, talking with my male friends I can tell what they're really thinking even if they phrase it differently or gloss over certain facts.  I can also tell and predict their actions and emotions by their body language.  But girls!  It's just nuts...  I always figured myself to be a good gauge of personality, but with women I have no clue.  Even the girls I'm acquainted with I still can't understand.

It's so hard to distinguish signs that women give... I suppose they're raised to be a lot more cryptic in their actions.  How can a girl run up and hug me (quite often), move my hand inbetween/near her breasts while riding on the bus ("for warmth (in winter)" my ass), and other such contacts, yet still decline when I finally ask her out?

Other situations a girl writes "je t'aime" and then in another language "i love you" in French class.  But the thing is, this is a French class meme of only a select few.  I'm not a part of their meme, nor do I understand the comedy of it, but why is she using it with me?  How is a guy supposed to react?

There was this once when this slightly emo-girl was coming onto me (we shared some common interests, common viewpoints, she was intelligent and relatively attractive) and yet I froze up.  I think the starting of my failure was not showing up at the dance that I was informally supposed to meet her at.  Then, she camwhored herself to me over the internet while under the influence of ecstasy (me: "holy fuck"), saying I was one of her "special picks" or some shit.  There was some kind of invitation of sex too...  WTF am I doing with my life?  Do I want to have sex with some whore? (YES; interesting proposition, but no car @ the time) but yet I think I'm afraid of commitment or some excuse along those lines.  Had the situation arisen at the present date, I think I'd hop in the car right away...

Anyone suggest topics of conversation with women?  I'm pretty sure they aren't interested in electronics, technology, video gaming, or other intellectual subjects...  Maybe only nerdy girls?  Myself, I'm not really nerdy in appearance but rather in action and interests.  I guess I'd describe myself as an average guy.

There are times I feel kinda lonely, when I'm not hanging out with friends (as of late, usually been playing video games with them, seeing movies).  Most times I'm perfectly content!  But would it be worth my while to get a girlfriend I wonder?  I do enjoy the freedom of a single life very much, but those lonely times make me reflect and think.  I've had so many chances to leave my single life, and yet I've failed, screwed up, missed the boat, or misinterpreted every one of them.

Fuck highschool romance!