Translation help

I wrongfully posted this on /jp/, so I'm just going to copy-paste the post.

I would really really appreciate some help in understanding and translating some japanese.

I have translated them with google, of course, but then again, it isn't perfect, and some of it I'm not understanding...

The text goes as follows...

Message 1:

「この愛は苦しい」それは私今気付いた。
先、私の友達は私の前に恋人の仲を話す。
ずっと私はあの仲に星だから少し嬉。
でもね。。。そのニュースは遅くって。。。
気付くない。私の本当の気持。
だから今日から、私と友達の「家族」は終わった。
初めから。。。私はこの家族に最後まで永遠に何も信じたい。
永遠に。。その願いは難しすぎる。
この思う。。。この気持。。。私一人にこの道で歩いて。。
それはだれでも問題じゃない。
恥ずかしいけど。。。私泣きたい。
本当に心の中に。。。泣きたい。
でも、できなかった。もし私いつも泣き虫。。。
いつか私強いの人ですか？
強いの人が生きたい。
その存在は。。。私もらいたい。
だから。。。泣けない。
それは私。。。自分の約束通りです。。。
。。。でも。。。この時に。。。私泣いてもいいね？

Message 2:

何か。。あいつが殺す。
殺したいと星です。
でも、それはむりかな。。。
あいつは私の娘の恋人だから。。。
できません。
もし死んだら、彼女は私に許しません。
この家族は本当に難しいそうです。。。
うわあああ～～～～でっかい嫌いな。。。！！！！！！！

Message 3:

さすが私！
ばかはいつもばか、ね？
真実は。。。愛がある。。。

Ill just drop by to translate Message 3, one and two are too complicated for me.

"It was me / I did it.
A fool is always a fool, right?
(The) truth is ... (always) have love..."

The third line is written funny, but I added the words with brackets around them to clear up possible misunderstandings

Hey OP, check the post on /jp/

I replied.

But warning, I didn't do it all. Whoever wrote this isn't Japanese. Or retarded. And the Japanese is frustrating. At a lot of points it makes no sense, or uses infantile words where others should be used to express more meaning. At other times they include things in the sentence that only work with specific verb endings... then the verbs don't end that way.

Hey Post #2

It's written funny for the reason I stated in my post (#3)

Thanks guys, I really appreciate this help. Holy shit, do I appreacite it!

Thanks guys, I really appreciate this help. Holy shit, do I appreacite it!

My crack at it, moving some syntax and grammar around

Message #1

"This love is painful" - I just now realized that
Earlier, my friend stood before me and talked of lover's relationships
I always wanted such a relationship so I was a tad gleeful
But you know, that news is slow...
They went unnoticed... my true feelings
So, from today forward, my friend and I's "family" ended.
From the beginning...I wanted to eternally believe anything about this family to the very end
Eternally...that desire was too difficult
These thoughts...these feelings...I alone walk this path
And that isn't a problem for anyone.
It's embarrasing but I want to cry
Truly in my heart, I want to cry
But I couldn't do it. If I'm always a crybaby...
will I someday be a person of strength?
Strong people want to exist
I want to receive... that existence.
So... I can't cry.
That is the promise...I made to myself...
...but...right now...it's alright if I cry, right?

Your help is appreciated, sir.