Name: Anonymous 2009-12-24 8:44
Days turn to weeks, weeks turn to months, months turn to a year - the year doubles - and yet still the same problem remains. This unspoken knowledge has been shared by all members of my household for such a long time, yet never has it been discussed between us. When the news first hit us it was as a lightning bolt, we were shocked into silence and self-reflection. But now, less lightning-like it festers like a dark sludge below the very foundations of this once-amiable family, slowly eating away at all of us. Perhaps if we deny it for long enough, that repulsive abhorrent deed may slither away, far out of reach of any of our memories, leaving us in peace. But, deep down we know and accept that this will never be the case. What was done cannot be "un-done". We're stuck with it, forced to keep it here in our house and mind, as if the memory of it has become a permanent member of our family. Until the very last of our hearts stops beating, this repulsive monster will not leave the world. Time has shown me that discussing such an act only makes my melancholy worse, unloading my burdens onto others simply isn't fair. There seems to be no clear way out of this. So perhaps, if we continue to avoid discussion and deny it any place on our lips for long enough, we may one day be set free from the tyranny of the situation we are trapped to live under...That's the silent-hope we share here, anyway. Yet still, I cannot help but catch myself wondering; how long will it be until sirens can be heard outside my house again? And why will we not solve this now, before they are even given reason to start - why do we do nothing but wait?