Existential Anxiety

What do you guys think, or how do you deal with it? It seems to me to come from the conflict between the deep seated desire to live and the belief that life is meaningless.

What is /sci/'s 'philosophy' of life, or what motivates you to keep living?

>>7
yes, I too have tried to immerse myself in science, math, and programming to try to ignore the fact that I have nothing and no-one to live for.

But it comes to a point where it just isn't enough. Why should I even care about these things, once I'm gone, it will have been for nothing. They seem to be very worthwhile, but only once you have a basic reason for existing.

Basically, I'm a failure at life, very few friends, a suffocating family that i cant get away from. The reason I want to live, i guess, is to see how things turn out, hope that things can get better, and hell, it beats not living.