I used to get home from school and cry

I have had a stutter (speech problem) since I was about 6. I was teased all through primary school, up until high school, when the constant teasing slowed up a little bit. I used to just get home from school and cry. I have tried numerous smooth speech programs and event camps to try and stop my stutter, but nothing seems to help. The best I can do is live with it and try my best not to think about it.

Meeting new people is very embarrassing, especially girls. I have built up a lot of anger from when the other kids used to tease me at school and I take it out on things and people, like my dad. I cant help it, I just get out of control, causing massive arguments. I wake up each morning not wanting to get out of bed, wishing it was night time so I could sleep again, shut the world out for another few hours. What job am I going to get with a severe stutter?

Nitori sat on the edge of a rock on the river. She had a bored look on her face, although she was waiting for Hina Kagiyama, the goddess of misfortune. It may seem unusual for a kappa to be friends with a goddess, but this is Gensokyo.

She heard running on rocks nearby. It was rather foggy that morning, but Nitori saw Hina across from it. "Sorry I'm late!" Hina yelled, waving a hello to her. "So, you said you wanted me here yesterday. How come?" she asked. Nitori replied,"Well, I just wanted to talk for a while~" Hina looked at her in shock, she thought it was going to be more important, but she accepted the request of communication. "So, Nitori, who is someone you admire?" she asked. "Yukari Yakumo! I've never met her before, but she's so cool! She can make gaps and she helped Reimu seperate Gensokyo from the outside world, although I'm sure Yukari did all the work~ Also I like her hair!" Nitori quickly replied. Hina smiled, knowing it was cute for Nitori to admire someone like Yukari.

"I'll say I admire Byakuren. Although I've never met her, I've heard of her, and she sounds nice. I heard she's very kind and she never gets angry, and that she's really powerful. Someone to envy indeed." Hina said calmly. "I see." Nitori replied. She began humming her theme and swinging her legs a little. "Oh, now I remember why I brought you here," Hina followed Nitori to a large tree. A swing was perched on it, hanging down. It was made of a flat log and a strong rope. Nitori happily jumped to sit on it and looked back to Hina. "Push me~!" she said, happily. Hina gleefully pushed Nitori with all her might. She flew into the air, clung onto the swing. "Yay!!" She yelled. Back and forth, she flew. After a few seconds, the swing gracefully stopped. "Again~ Push me again!"