I am a shitty programmer

After many instances of thinking I was mediocre, it has come to my attention that I am genuinely a shitty programmer. when I wrote code that I was genuinely pleased with, only to see it thrown away, I thought that the person rewriting it was just showing off. I never found it suspicious that I was the only one fired when companies needed to "downsize", because I was a bit asocial and sometimes forgetful about implementing things to spec.

I was oblivious.

I have read SICP. I have a education in CS from a prestigious community college and a state university.

Is it possible that some people are just shitty, stupid programmers? Clearly I am one of these people. I think I'll call up Kodak-kun to see if he needs any help with the toilets.

I know your type. Please, do everyone a favor and leave the industry. You need to stay the fuck away from code. You are terrible. You hold everyone back. You are the reason that things move 25% slower than they should, because everyone has to fix your mistakes. You never should have gotten into programming in the first place. You don't have the right way of thinking. No one likes you and your ideas are stupid wastes of time and breath. You wasted thousands of dollars but it's not to late to change. Just go away. Please. I don't care if its your dream, you are cancer. What you lack in skill is not made up for in enthusiasm. Go back to school and study something else. Or start a farm. Or go to prison. It doesn't matter, just go.