Name: Anonymous 2012-12-23 2:33
Subject is the TL;DR question, so let me give a bit of context.
Most of my life has been uninteresting and besides being a "freak" in middleschool for 2 months and then dropping the act nothing else comes to mind. I used to drink heavily but never became an alcoholic, I used to do drugs but never became an addict, I had a gf and so on. Then I moved to another country because I had the chance to do so and study university abroad.
Here I somehow became more "myself" since I didn't have to deal with expectations and premade images people had of me among many other things. I became truer to myself one could say... or that I simply was always like this but didn't know since until now I rarely had time for myself, alone.
Living alone in a far a way place I discovered how much empathy I lack... I learned to miss my parents and some friends but that's pretty much it. Growing up I always had some place in the internet where I could rant... I can still hear the modem over the phone, connecting slowly, so I had to reconnect until it was fine and I could talk to some motherfuckers online.
Needless to say, having two personas or more like most people became the norm... one that enjoyed all the things I knew I did, and one that acted like a normal person. Deviant shit aside, I used to hang out in forums, irc, and similar community driven places... but now I feel also disconnected and more lonely...
/b/ now has a pattern and no discussion since a long time. Old irc channels have dies, dried up, now I only frequent those where there's something relevant like scanlation. /a/ is kinda the same in the general sense, but it's population is younger and there's not much to say for me now unless it's night-time discussion... reddit in the beginning was some sort of /g/ and had small talk about various shit but mostly had the feel of a community of programmers or in the know... needless to say I haven't touched it since 3 or 2 years...
Now I feel alone, going to uni and studying physics, watching anime or reading normal lit during my free time. Is there a place where there's mostly small talk about anything, but the community clearly has a liking of programming, "nerd" hobbies of any kind (trains, electronic projects, aviation, anime, etc.)? I feel a bit out of place... maybe this feeling will go away in some days.
Anyway, so I already took some courses in C and Haskell, but now that I'm studying physics (changed courses, lost credits) I've been wondering... would it make sense to do a course in Fortran to get credits plus the experience, or should I simply repeat a course in C to get the credits easily? (since I could learn Fortran later on my own, maybe)
Most of my life has been uninteresting and besides being a "freak" in middleschool for 2 months and then dropping the act nothing else comes to mind. I used to drink heavily but never became an alcoholic, I used to do drugs but never became an addict, I had a gf and so on. Then I moved to another country because I had the chance to do so and study university abroad.
Here I somehow became more "myself" since I didn't have to deal with expectations and premade images people had of me among many other things. I became truer to myself one could say... or that I simply was always like this but didn't know since until now I rarely had time for myself, alone.
Living alone in a far a way place I discovered how much empathy I lack... I learned to miss my parents and some friends but that's pretty much it. Growing up I always had some place in the internet where I could rant... I can still hear the modem over the phone, connecting slowly, so I had to reconnect until it was fine and I could talk to some motherfuckers online.
Needless to say, having two personas or more like most people became the norm... one that enjoyed all the things I knew I did, and one that acted like a normal person. Deviant shit aside, I used to hang out in forums, irc, and similar community driven places... but now I feel also disconnected and more lonely...
/b/ now has a pattern and no discussion since a long time. Old irc channels have dies, dried up, now I only frequent those where there's something relevant like scanlation. /a/ is kinda the same in the general sense, but it's population is younger and there's not much to say for me now unless it's night-time discussion... reddit in the beginning was some sort of /g/ and had small talk about various shit but mostly had the feel of a community of programmers or in the know... needless to say I haven't touched it since 3 or 2 years...
Now I feel alone, going to uni and studying physics, watching anime or reading normal lit during my free time. Is there a place where there's mostly small talk about anything, but the community clearly has a liking of programming, "nerd" hobbies of any kind (trains, electronic projects, aviation, anime, etc.)? I feel a bit out of place... maybe this feeling will go away in some days.
Anyway, so I already took some courses in C and Haskell, but now that I'm studying physics (changed courses, lost credits) I've been wondering... would it make sense to do a course in Fortran to get credits plus the experience, or should I simply repeat a course in C to get the credits easily? (since I could learn Fortran later on my own, maybe)