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I can't. My head feels funny and I start laughing and my eyes roll backward. I feel like I want to hit my face in a wall as hard as I can. I feel like I'm going
fucking insane. You don't even know how silly I feel. I look in the mirror and then quickly turn around looking at the back wall and grind my teeth together. During this time it feels like something just shifted out of its orbit. It's like my brain cells are not equal to themselves, inconsistent or chaotic somehow, or that there's something crazy going on at the quantum level or that some particles in my brain are entangled with aliens and shit. But the worst part is that I
kind of like it. Kind of. I don't love it, I don't know how to embrace it, it avoids me, it's eating my subconscious.
What the fuck? I want to fucking drill a hole in my head so this horrible tickling angsty sensation leaves me alone.