There's just too much

so many things to learn
not enough time, life running out
the code, a black morass of details mingling infinitely
will i ever understand?

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I suggest using the Google search to find out about some of the terms I described in bold. Wikipedia is also a good source of external information.
However, the main problem you have is that you depend too much on others for information. People have different opinions and our understanding can change. The best way to learn is to try and experience. Go into it and feel it like a true VIPPER. It's the only way you will understand.