>>2
It's not the first thing to get started.
SICP is an awesome book about CS and it will help you develop a lot of awesome programming-fu, and Lisp is an awesome language,
EXCEPT! that the casual newb will struggle likely with it, quickly get frustrated and abandon it convinced that SICP is shit, that Lisp is a shitty language, and that SICP/Lisp fans are all faggots like you.
Anyway,
>>1-san, the hipsters at lolRacket think that if you have trouble understanding SICP,
http://www.htdp.org/2003-09-26/ will tutor you starting from the very bottom, at a very slow pace. Its main problem, besides from its slow pace, is being overly monotonous. But you should have problems with that.