Help /prog/ I've ruined four lives. Mine, my mums mate, her husbands and their daughters. On new years eve mum asked me to drive her and her mate (Suzy) to a party. Suzy persuaded mum to let me stay as long as I didn't drink so I could take them home. I've had a bad crush on Suzy for a long time. Suzy is 27 married and has a 6 year old girl, she did modeling at one time and is very beautiful. Mum and Suzy got drunk but Suzy was the worst. At the end of the night mum asked me to take Suzy upstairs and put her on the bed in the master bedroom. Mum would be up later to check on her. At the bedroom door I realized my hand was on her breast. I should have moved my hand but I squeezed her breast. Suzy didn't react. I left the party but waited round the corner for an hour. I sneaked back in, the place was dead quiet. I went into Suzy's room, got in bed and cuddled up to her back. Suzy never moved. I started kissing her neck. She was only in her bra and panties. I began touching her breast, I was going to have a feel then leave. before I knew what I was doing I had her panties down a bit. I was rubbing my penis against her vagina. Suzy did not move she just snored lightly. I was going to get off like that but I pushed into her and had sex with her while she was out of it. I just found out that after her girl was born her husband had a vasectomy. Suzy has not been on the pill for years. I didn't use a condom and now she's pregnant and can't explain it to her husband. He's moved out and is divorcing her for having an affair. This is all my fault, I can't bring myself to tell Suzy what I've done. I want to but I am to scared. I want to kill myself for all the lives I've ruined. I never meant to go that far.