Name: Anonymous 2011-09-12 14:05
I have struggled with this intense shame for many years, remembering all the girls and women I have sexually assaulted. It is making me paranoid whenever I meat a woman, is she just surprised/embarrased when I tell a crude sexual joke at work? Or does she suddenly recognize me as the guy who raped her when she was just a little girl? Every woman I meat might be one of my victims, I do not remember their faces. They probably remember my face. I made sure they did. But it is making me lonely and bitter, incapable of trusting any woman I don't plan on assaulting. I think I need professional help to get over my shame.