Rape victim

me and my boyfriend were having sex the other night, and he asked me for anal. I've done it once before with him and didnt really enjoy it but it didnt hurt so i thought it would be fine again, not realising last time i dont it i was very drunk which must have helped alot.

this time it was so so painful even with lube (he is very big i have trouble takin him normally sometimes).

I kept tellin him it was hurtin and he was sayin he wud take it gentle, it was hurtin that badly i started cryin and shaking, and he kept asking me if it was hurtin and i kept sayin yes. this went on for about 10 minutes and he eventually stopped and i ran to the bathroom cryin and wouldnt let him touch me for the rest of the night.

i eventually told him the next day why i was so quiet and unresponsive, that he had hurt me in more ways than one. one doin it, then 2 it hurt me to think he didnt care and still done it when i was upset and in pain.

this from the man that has said from day one that i am the one,he will marry me, and we will have kids, we are meant to be together.

then he goes and treats me like a toy...........

i dont no what to do, i could never carry on wit something if i new it was hurting someone.

im not sure i believe he loves me after this, i am so close to finnishin it, i would have already if it wasnt for him begginin for forgivness and cryin.

>>49
Yes, my suffering actually DOES go away when it's trivialized and disrespected. In general, that's the point of thinking like a victim? I took a risc and I underestimated myself and I paid the price for that. Nagging about it being "the most wrong evar" only makes me pity myself instead of taking responsibility for my life.
Rape trauma is also part of my life now, and it's boring as hell. I need to be able to laugh at it. Only nazi-feminists who pretends that rape is the ultimate bad in order to blame men, and men who thinks it will land them chicks, thinks rape is such a serious matter that it can't be laughed at. Lighten up.

>>52
Copypasta from here:
http://encyclopediadramatica.ch/Copypasta/Archive_7#RAPE_IS_NOT_FUCKING_FUNNY.21