Name: Anonymous 2011-04-24 16:07
While technically I am not a hikikomori, I live a very reclusive life, only leaving my apartment to visit my parents or other family and to do groceries etc. I am enjoying a comfortable NEET lifestyle, receiving generous disability benefits and living in a very cheap and awesomely located small apartment. I can afford anything I want(*) and have even saved enough money to survive 3 years without any income, yet I am struggling with my existence. It doesn't feel right, to live so completely alienated from normal society. It's not just social pressure, I think living such a life is harming me mentally. But I don't know how to fix this. I am 27 and haven't interacted with peers in over 5 years. Soon it might be too late to do anything about my situation. I also have a visible facial injury, which has a great impact on my self-esteem. I can't even imagine dating a girl because of this, it would be like beauty and the beast, but a Lars Trier version instead of a Disney.
I don't know what to do anymore, I just keep spending 10 hours a day on the internet or playing games to escape from reality. This works on the short term, but on the long term I feel my sanity slipping away and my anger/hatred towards society and myself increasing. Help me, /lounge/, I am desperate.
(*)I don't want anything besides computer stuff, games and consoles.
I don't know what to do anymore, I just keep spending 10 hours a day on the internet or playing games to escape from reality. This works on the short term, but on the long term I feel my sanity slipping away and my anger/hatred towards society and myself increasing. Help me, /lounge/, I am desperate.
(*)I don't want anything besides computer stuff, games and consoles.