Name: RedCream 2010-09-10 17:16
Over these past couple of months I find that it's becoming much more difficult for me to talk and to interact with people.
Whenever I'm out in public I feel like everyone is watching me and that they know my "secrets". Whenever my phone rings my heart skips a beat. I get even more tense when I see it's a number that I'm unfamiliar with. Also, when I'm put into a situation in which I have to talk to people that I don't know very well, I want to just run away from that location and hide from them. It's even worse when I'm talking to women. I just want to crawl into a corner and die.
I can no longer maintain eye contact when I'm talking to someone for more than a few seconds. When someone asks me how my day is going I only reply with, "Good." and I then proceed to whip out my phone and act like I'm texting someone. My social anxiety gets even worse when I'm on campus. I feel like a spy behind enemy lines in a strange and foreign land. Everything and everyone there is so backwards and alien to me. And because I can't relate to anyone there, I just hide in my car whenever I don't have class and just browse the Internet until my next class. Then when I'm in a classroom setting I get really tense. I feel like I could say or do something wrong at any second and look like a complete idiot. So I keep my movements at a minimum and my mouth shut. Also, on rare occasions I sometimes run into people that I knew from high school. I begin to panic when I see one of these persons from my not so distant past because I realize how much of a loser I've become. I'm basically a hermit that has no friends and browses the Internet all day. I can't remember how many lies I've told these former classmates of mine.
Right now I'm at home just laying awake in my bed typing this and wanting tomorrow and the next 3 years of my college days to go by quick and painless. I have to wake up at six so I might be on here briefly to only view your replies.
So Lounge, do I need to go see a shrink?
Whenever I'm out in public I feel like everyone is watching me and that they know my "secrets". Whenever my phone rings my heart skips a beat. I get even more tense when I see it's a number that I'm unfamiliar with. Also, when I'm put into a situation in which I have to talk to people that I don't know very well, I want to just run away from that location and hide from them. It's even worse when I'm talking to women. I just want to crawl into a corner and die.
I can no longer maintain eye contact when I'm talking to someone for more than a few seconds. When someone asks me how my day is going I only reply with, "Good." and I then proceed to whip out my phone and act like I'm texting someone. My social anxiety gets even worse when I'm on campus. I feel like a spy behind enemy lines in a strange and foreign land. Everything and everyone there is so backwards and alien to me. And because I can't relate to anyone there, I just hide in my car whenever I don't have class and just browse the Internet until my next class. Then when I'm in a classroom setting I get really tense. I feel like I could say or do something wrong at any second and look like a complete idiot. So I keep my movements at a minimum and my mouth shut. Also, on rare occasions I sometimes run into people that I knew from high school. I begin to panic when I see one of these persons from my not so distant past because I realize how much of a loser I've become. I'm basically a hermit that has no friends and browses the Internet all day. I can't remember how many lies I've told these former classmates of mine.
Right now I'm at home just laying awake in my bed typing this and wanting tomorrow and the next 3 years of my college days to go by quick and painless. I have to wake up at six so I might be on here briefly to only view your replies.
So Lounge, do I need to go see a shrink?