Name: Anonymous 2010-07-08 14:25
I still thought of him but not as much, and most of the time I was just wondering if he might be with someone else. A few days ago, I decided that I was over everything. I could be happy for myself, and also happy for him with what ever he decides to do. I went on his MSN to check something and some messages popped up. From one of my friends saying things like I miss you and I love you. I was shocked. I confronted her, and she admitted that they had fallen in love, but he had left without a word and it sounded strikingly familiar to me. I was so upset that he could do this, I called him and asked him what was going on. She had told me that they were both upset about break ups and they just fell in love while looking for comfort in each other. I asked him, “Do you love her?” and he said “No, I care about her which is why I left, but I never told her I loved her.” I told her what he said (this point still really upset) and she told me that he told her things like “My love for you has no end…” these are things he would say to me, and now hes saying it to her. My heart broke all over. Not because I was jealous but because he could do something that would hurt me like that, he knew I was jealous of her to begin with. I told both of them the reasons why I was mad at them, they are as follows;
Her:
1. She sat there and talked to me like nothing ever happened, she never once told me.
2. She went behind my back
3. Friends do not date friends ex FIANCES.
Him:
1. He waited only a few weeks to move on, after 3 years of engagement.
2. He lied to me when he told me there was no one else.
After thinking everything out I apologized to her, I told her that I was sorry for being upset, but that’s something you just don’t do with your “friends” ex. I told her I was mad at her from keeping that away from me, when I would tell her how upset I was that he wasn’t with me, and all along he was with her, but I forgive her because its not her fault she fell in love with him, I know that it wasn’t her fault, she just got caught up in his charm. As for him, I acted mad, but I got over it and we talked in peace. I never told him what I wanted to tell him, and he’ll probably never know. I might as well tell who’s ever reading and get it off my chest. I’m Jealous, and I’m hurt. I never prepared myself for the thought of him telling someone else that he loves them, because honestly I always thought it would be me. I’m hurt that while I was laying there waiting for him to come after me, waiting for him to come and show me how much I meant to him, he was telling someone else he loves them. He told me he loved me more then he could ever love anyone and that he probably always would, but after being engaged and spending all of that time together he just moves on after a few weeks? He gave her the love that I was looking for, and I stood by like a fool thinking that I was worth chasing, and I’m jealous that he got to move on so easily, while it took me months to be just “OK.” I always thought that I would never love someone as much as I loved him, I thought that no one could love me the way that he did. If you ever read this I want to thank you though, You made me see that we were never meant to last, I was always so afraid that if you were ever to come back to me that I would melt and run to you, but now I know I wont. Because every time I think of you, I see her, Every time you have ever said you loved me, I hear her saying it back and every time you made me cry it’s now making me stronger. I’m now strong enough to let go of you, It’s what you wanted and I’m glad I can finally give that to you after 5 months. It was the clarity I needed, despite all of this though I want you to be happy, because even if you never meant it, I meant every word I said, I love you. I hope that you can find the happiness you’re looking for, even if means her, I’ll stand by you and support you, hopefully one day you can do the same for me. I finally know why you didn’t want to be with me, you fell in love and realized there is better out there for you, I’m so proud that you finally know that. This is for you..http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysGFdCg6Jfg
Her:
1. She sat there and talked to me like nothing ever happened, she never once told me.
2. She went behind my back
3. Friends do not date friends ex FIANCES.
Him:
1. He waited only a few weeks to move on, after 3 years of engagement.
2. He lied to me when he told me there was no one else.
After thinking everything out I apologized to her, I told her that I was sorry for being upset, but that’s something you just don’t do with your “friends” ex. I told her I was mad at her from keeping that away from me, when I would tell her how upset I was that he wasn’t with me, and all along he was with her, but I forgive her because its not her fault she fell in love with him, I know that it wasn’t her fault, she just got caught up in his charm. As for him, I acted mad, but I got over it and we talked in peace. I never told him what I wanted to tell him, and he’ll probably never know. I might as well tell who’s ever reading and get it off my chest. I’m Jealous, and I’m hurt. I never prepared myself for the thought of him telling someone else that he loves them, because honestly I always thought it would be me. I’m hurt that while I was laying there waiting for him to come after me, waiting for him to come and show me how much I meant to him, he was telling someone else he loves them. He told me he loved me more then he could ever love anyone and that he probably always would, but after being engaged and spending all of that time together he just moves on after a few weeks? He gave her the love that I was looking for, and I stood by like a fool thinking that I was worth chasing, and I’m jealous that he got to move on so easily, while it took me months to be just “OK.” I always thought that I would never love someone as much as I loved him, I thought that no one could love me the way that he did. If you ever read this I want to thank you though, You made me see that we were never meant to last, I was always so afraid that if you were ever to come back to me that I would melt and run to you, but now I know I wont. Because every time I think of you, I see her, Every time you have ever said you loved me, I hear her saying it back and every time you made me cry it’s now making me stronger. I’m now strong enough to let go of you, It’s what you wanted and I’m glad I can finally give that to you after 5 months. It was the clarity I needed, despite all of this though I want you to be happy, because even if you never meant it, I meant every word I said, I love you. I hope that you can find the happiness you’re looking for, even if means her, I’ll stand by you and support you, hopefully one day you can do the same for me. I finally know why you didn’t want to be with me, you fell in love and realized there is better out there for you, I’m so proud that you finally know that. This is for you..http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysGFdCg6Jfg