none of us can be real adults

Does anyone on here actually feel like they are a fully-developed grown up? Does anyone feel like they have gone any further than that "Mommy, what's the F-word?" mentality. I have noticed that pretty much every virgin over the age of 19, if he's not really creepy, he'll have an odd bone, if not creepy, he'll be like a howdy-doody boy scout type. All of these are versions of manchildren. I don't know if it's possible for us to hide this badge of humiliation. We need to think of ways.

Discuss.

Sometimes it feels like I'm not even human. Some days I wake up and try not to remind myself that I'm a virgin living in a basement (yeah I know it's cliche). At least it's not my mom's basement. I'm kind of renting it out from my uncle right now.

It's not so much the big things, like I'm 39 and working as a cashier and have no other job experience, or that I drive a 1985 Dodge Aries (and who knows for how much longer), or I've never gotten laid, I've never dated, every "friend" I've ever had was just out to take advantage of me, it's the little things. Like, at least real adults can pick up after themselves and do laundry. I mean I do that now but when I do it it gets to be a project, to where I have to spend the better part of the day picking up garbage and some of it is half-eaten food. Or I realize I've been wearing the same clothes for days on end and I have no clean laundry. A lot of times I'll fall asleep on the couch and just wear the same clothes I wore yesterday. Real adults nevr have to wear the "B-side" of their underwear. I let shit pile up for too long. I mean a real adult would be able to wash dishes and there would be no empty beer cans cluttering up the counter and they wouldn't find puke in the sink and not be able to remember the specifics about it.

Every day at work when I look at customers who are clean and happy and sober, I think, there's somebody who's more successful than me. There's a homeless guy who comes in to buy cigarettes or a soda sometimes and I'm pretty sure he's gotten laid, so at least he has that going for him.