Name: Anonymous 2009-03-01 23:59
Well where to start... first off, the reason I'm posting about this in lounge is because I can't talk to any of my friends about it as it involves my best friend who nobody knows has been hooking up with me the past few years.
To cut a long story short, I've been getting it on with my best friend (a guy who is pretty gay-acting but is straight as far as everyone else knows) for the past 7-8 years. It all started when we were 15/16 (the hooking up that is - we've been best friends since we were born). I'm not talking about just kissing btw, just to give you some perspective (after the "what does hooking up mean?" thread and all).
Over the years, I became more and more attracted to him and I ended up falling pretty badly in love with him. I talked about this with him about 18 months ago and we agreed that we'd stop hooking up as it wasn't healthy for either of us (he said at the time he didn't know what he wanted - he wished he could be either gay or straight but didn't feel either). That lasted all of about 2 months and then we fell into it again.
Fast-forward to now - everything is fucked up. He suddenly says he's not gay (go figure - after the shit we got up to) and he's possibly going to pursue a relationship with another friend of ours (a girl) who confessed her love for him last week (it's been no secret that she's been obsessed with him for the past few years).
My situation is now that I desperately need to get the fuck over him - but that's gonna be pretty hard to do considering he's still my best friend and I see him several times a week. I don't know if I'm strong enough to handle seeing him and the girl together without dying inside a little every time.
I'm really hoping someone here has had a similar experience and has come through it without it killing them - any advice would be appreciated.
If you feel the need to mock me or tell me to head to LiveJournal, bring it on - I can handle the abuse. What I can't handle is the thought of being miserable the rest of my life.
To cut a long story short, I've been getting it on with my best friend (a guy who is pretty gay-acting but is straight as far as everyone else knows) for the past 7-8 years. It all started when we were 15/16 (the hooking up that is - we've been best friends since we were born). I'm not talking about just kissing btw, just to give you some perspective (after the "what does hooking up mean?" thread and all).
Over the years, I became more and more attracted to him and I ended up falling pretty badly in love with him. I talked about this with him about 18 months ago and we agreed that we'd stop hooking up as it wasn't healthy for either of us (he said at the time he didn't know what he wanted - he wished he could be either gay or straight but didn't feel either). That lasted all of about 2 months and then we fell into it again.
Fast-forward to now - everything is fucked up. He suddenly says he's not gay (go figure - after the shit we got up to) and he's possibly going to pursue a relationship with another friend of ours (a girl) who confessed her love for him last week (it's been no secret that she's been obsessed with him for the past few years).
My situation is now that I desperately need to get the fuck over him - but that's gonna be pretty hard to do considering he's still my best friend and I see him several times a week. I don't know if I'm strong enough to handle seeing him and the girl together without dying inside a little every time.
I'm really hoping someone here has had a similar experience and has come through it without it killing them - any advice would be appreciated.
If you feel the need to mock me or tell me to head to LiveJournal, bring it on - I can handle the abuse. What I can't handle is the thought of being miserable the rest of my life.