I am a worthless ugly freak . I look like utter shit and hate myself. I have no self confidence and I'm paranoid. I've never had a girlfriend my whole life because I'm so ugly, shy, introverted and unlovable. I am too scared to get a job so I sit at home on my ass on 4chan all day under the roof of my over protective mother who treats me like a baby. My dad doesn't give a shit boo fucking hoo. All I do is fantasize about how life could have been and imagine myself back at school as a different person who could have achieved great things. I have never achieved anything I am a worthless sack of fucking shit. I am ugly and deformed and scrawny as hell and my friends think I'm a total waster and they are right. I am bitter and jealous at them because of their normality and success in all areas of life but I just waste away like the freak I am. I can't even listen to music anymore because it is painful for me as it was the passion I never followed because I'm too scared and self conscious and I'm even jealous of my favourite bands for their success. Thats how fucked up I've become. I'm the scum of the earth and I detest myself that death would be a blessing but I'm far too much of a coward to end it so I'll sit in misery forever instead. I hate my life, life is not fair I don't give a fuck if I'm privalleged compared to some starving African, that old chesnut, fuck them . I am a racist and detest other people becaue I detest myself and can neverbe haoppy for anyone. I am a talentless waste of life with no redeeming features whatsoever. I am filth and scum. I am the shit that is stuck to the toilet pan. I am nothing and never, ever will be