Name: Anonymous 2009-01-17 8:01
I don't know how to come to terms with this post because it brings so many painful memories. I just spent the last hour crying in the shower, I've endured years of torment over horny lonliness but eventually found a kind soul in Emma. She was smart, she was beautiful and best of all, she saw past the troll and saw me for who I am. I was definitely the cock of the walk at school as she had been one of the more popular students. I felt on top of the world.
On Valentines Day last year she suggested that we make love to mark the occasion and I told her of my insecurities due to my inexperience (or rather, zero experience). She assured me that everything would be fine and that she really wanted to take our relationship to the next step. I agreed and on Valentines Day we had a nice dinner and movie and as the night wore so, my anxiety grew. I tried my best to postpone it but the moment finally arrived and she started to undress me slowly. She told me she loved me and that it was her first time. When she finally took my pants off and I was naked, she threw me onto the bed, took pictures of me nude and then ran away, laughing.
It was a joke the whole time. A cruel cruel joke. How foolish was I to believe that someone like her could love me? The pictures made their way around the school and I was greeted the next morning with hand signs showing extended pinkies all around. I had to transfer schools but the pain of it still remains.
The days since then have been a nightmare. I've developed agoraphobia and several eating disorders. I haven't left my house unless it's for school and even then I had cut classes until I was expelled for truancy. My life was over until I found this forum and realized that I was not the only one suffering.
On Valentines Day last year she suggested that we make love to mark the occasion and I told her of my insecurities due to my inexperience (or rather, zero experience). She assured me that everything would be fine and that she really wanted to take our relationship to the next step. I agreed and on Valentines Day we had a nice dinner and movie and as the night wore so, my anxiety grew. I tried my best to postpone it but the moment finally arrived and she started to undress me slowly. She told me she loved me and that it was her first time. When she finally took my pants off and I was naked, she threw me onto the bed, took pictures of me nude and then ran away, laughing.
It was a joke the whole time. A cruel cruel joke. How foolish was I to believe that someone like her could love me? The pictures made their way around the school and I was greeted the next morning with hand signs showing extended pinkies all around. I had to transfer schools but the pain of it still remains.
The days since then have been a nightmare. I've developed agoraphobia and several eating disorders. I haven't left my house unless it's for school and even then I had cut classes until I was expelled for truancy. My life was over until I found this forum and realized that I was not the only one suffering.