I'm stuck in this weird limbo between being a boy and manhood. I'm relatively young, 23, so I guess it is natural. I still view myself as a kid most of the time. I like kid things like video games, action movies/superheroes, anime, and am basically curious and innocent like a child at times. I stopped reading comic books and playing with toys later than most I think (although I think the toys just got more advanced, i.e. computers and cars).
On the other hand (my Mr. Hyde if you will), I think I have passed some certain rites of passage into manhood. I've had sex, have always supported myself since I was 17, own up to my debts, lived on my own before, and have even financially supported other family members. Although, I don't have a "serious" career yet nor have had an "official" girlfriend. I also did not pass college. In these respects, I think I have failed the manhood test.
So what am I? A manchild? A walking Will Farrell movie?
To connect it to LS, sometimes I view myself as too boyish when I'm talking to females. I often wonder if they see me as more of a kid than an adult by the way I speak calmly and quietly and about simple/obscure things. I wouldn't say I'm boring, just haven't had lots of social/life experiences that I can relate. I just haven't been many places, done many things which is the basis for interesting conversations that will hold someone's attention.
Incoming lame story below, skip if you want:
Earlier today, I did realize some of this while talking to that older woman I had asked out a couple of months ago. Even though we had a long conversation, I felt as though I seemed like an uninteresting person. It felt like my words were just filler. I didn't make her laugh at all. Usually, I am pretty humorous and can make people laugh if I'm comfortable.
We had talked about Thanksgiving, but mine was terrible so I tried to focus on hers. I didn't have a Thanksgiving meal or celebrate it with family, all I think I had was a corndog the entire day. She had a lot to say because she went somewhere interesting with her family where there were hundreds of other people.
When talking to women, I just feel like I sometimes have nothing to say. The more I say, the more they can tell how much of a homebody and loser I really am. That's why I like to remain mysterious to others most of the time.
Anyways, I've derailed my own post. What do you consider yourself as, a man or boy and why?