PAIN!

I was in the bus after having went to a restaurant to cheer me up a bit (alone) and in front of me a couple went to sit on the seats. And they hugged and displayed their affection, the female leaning her head against the guy's shoulder. Her hair smelled so good too, I couldn't help but to notice.

I had to bear this for 20 minutes straight. I wanted to break both of their goddamn necks!!!

When I arrived in my apartment I realized that no one other than me had ever been in it and I went to bed even if it was still broad daylight outside and cried for hours. Then I threw many objects in the room violently against the floor.

It's ALWAYS THE SAME PEOPLE WHO HAVE EVERYTHING! While other good little guys like me try every single day to meet someone else and improve themselves and yet ROT IN PAIN! I'm so fed up of having the whole world outside making me feel like some stalker who should be ashamed of having a sexuality and being alive!

I've never known what it's like to matter a lot to someone that isn't a family member, I don't think I've ever had anyone spontaneously step up to me and trying to initiate contact because somehow they needed me for anything, other than my money.

So just because you don’t have any romantic connections means that another person can’t have one and is not allowed to express their affection in public? You are a terribly selfish person. And you call yourself a “good little guy”. You obviously feel that you haven’t gotten your “just due” in life and yet you want to deny someone else the right to live their own lives? That makes you a hypocrite also.

The tone of Lounge has gotten increasingly violent and troublesome. I wish it had a dedicated moderator.