Name: piss 2008-05-02 13:12
In my mid-twenties, never went further with a female than talking. In that state because I had a messed up life that I only gained control of very recently.
I did sports, but barely got any occasion to talk to girls, and could only go so far as small talk.
I'm just pissed off because I don't have any outlets to get closer to a girl.
I exercise one hour every day, and while it did make me feel good in the beginning, nowadays all that it feels like is that I'm building up a lot of character that's useless since I've no one to show it to.
At work everyone is seemingly older and in a relationship, and sometimes I get pissed off.
I get impatient at everything and increasingly violent. I just can't stand going into a mall and seeing couples everywhere while I'm perpetually alone. I feel so ignored that I fantasize about hitting and scaring random other people and don't know what to make of this. But I wouldn't ever do this since I'd end up in jail. I think of people that I hate and wish they were dead and suffered horribly. When I see in the news bad things happening to people who annoy me I can't help but to gloat viciously.
I'm thinking of attending to some random course that I don't give a piss about to move things forward but I'm wary that it could be a waste of time where I'd once again get nothing but small talk.
I did sports, but barely got any occasion to talk to girls, and could only go so far as small talk.
I'm just pissed off because I don't have any outlets to get closer to a girl.
I exercise one hour every day, and while it did make me feel good in the beginning, nowadays all that it feels like is that I'm building up a lot of character that's useless since I've no one to show it to.
At work everyone is seemingly older and in a relationship, and sometimes I get pissed off.
I get impatient at everything and increasingly violent. I just can't stand going into a mall and seeing couples everywhere while I'm perpetually alone. I feel so ignored that I fantasize about hitting and scaring random other people and don't know what to make of this. But I wouldn't ever do this since I'd end up in jail. I think of people that I hate and wish they were dead and suffered horribly. When I see in the news bad things happening to people who annoy me I can't help but to gloat viciously.
I'm thinking of attending to some random course that I don't give a piss about to move things forward but I'm wary that it could be a waste of time where I'd once again get nothing but small talk.