Name: Anonymous 2008-01-28 6:49
Every morning i get up, round 7AM.
its still dark outside whenever i look outside with my tired eyes, this lifestyle is gonna kill me.
well, its my own fault anyway, it was i who left college.
I just realized how hard it is to take care of your own ass, not having Dad around sure makes me sad, but its for the best.
sounds odd, but ever since my mom left home to work at some White supremacist company, my dad has been alone pretty much.
i was upstairs in the loft jacking it to hentai or playing bad korean MMORPG´s
Its funny, how a young kid can work out, when i was small i was always alone, playing with action figures and whatnot.
playing with action figures turned playing with virtual action figures. i had little to no intrest in girls, quite unhealthy for
the age at the moment. i think it because people had little intrest in me, i had little intrest in them.
But there where times i did saw someone who left a lasting impression.
there where a few, sometimes its just a face or a voice inside my head.
it didnt matter anyway, i was a coward, a mouse trapped in a bear's body.
never did i have the balls to talk to a girl like that.
even if i did talk to her in a social matter, i looked like a complete geek/idiot/loser
only saying hi, and asking things about school work or whatever.
I fail in everything in real life, altough.. just about everything.
the only "skill" i ever had was making people laugh, and since doing things you can do makes
you feel good, i often made jokes that hurt deep inside, but let people ballow the hardest.
often jokes to my dispair of dispair of minority's.
not that iam a socialistic everyone is the same as me type of person, i love burning down everyone who isnt the same
i love laughing about retarded people, middle eastern people, black people, jewish people. etc.
In realism. i would look quite racist if you look at me in the right way.
Hate is something it was present ever after i knew how to piss standing.
i hated allot of things, i hated going to school, i hated physical exercise.
Yeah, the last one shows iam fat. Fatness is maybe a reason why iam so bitter.
I was always teased to shit as a kid, get beat up after school with sticks and what-not.
My parents where quik to decide to get me the fuck out of normal schooling, and placed me into a special private alternative schooling system
These years are all vague to me, i notice that iam forgetting about it quiker and quiker.
i dont know what it is, but for some reason i want to forget everything what was up in the past, neither do i want to know what lies ahead.
God, this is such a horrible feeling, i feel trapped in my own appartment, im a sad 19 year old fatass that never liked being around people.
as every sad soul on this planet, it loves breaking down on others, therefore i got sucked into the world known
as the world wide web, or as faggots call it "the information super highway"
my family got the tubes way back in 1996, where we got a 56k modem, wich bleeped and blooped as i connected to the internet.
Soon i found chatrooms, where getting a girlfriend was friggin easy. As a 12 year old kid, it was amazing to feel being loved online
this was of short notice, i gave one of my "girlfriends" on the web my phonenumber, i got stalked for weeks, and i got beat too. by my dad
guy had full right of this, one thing tough, it WAS a girl. after that i think the girls left the internet.
soon i found out what masturbation was, wich deeply scarred me. after that i fapped every single evening.
i still remember the first thing that i fapped on, i recently found it back. it was a flash, it consisted rape and prostitution between streets for rage characters.
Terrified, thats what i was when i first came, i remember running to the toilet. But since it was pre mature, nothing happened.
when i think back to this, i laugh.
Downloading porn with Kazaa was friggin simple, and i remember looking at every single porn type i could find.
Bestiality, underwater, bondage, EVERTHING. Nothing was too weird.
Weird thing is, i loved it. i loved every single part of it.
Enough about this, lets talk about the internets.
I think the internet consists over 70% cool shit, 20% useless websites and 10% crap
the internet is fucking awesome, you can do everything there.
get e-aids, watch movies, cartoons, learn awesome shit like making bombs and how to rape womens without leaving traces, etc.
Like the scrum iam, i like to hang out near raw sewage. The raw sewage of the internet is simple, Chanwebsites and forums
Theres nothing more fun then to fling shit online to other shit flingers.
image seeing naked men, yelling funny words, running around in shit, throwing shit balls to each other, while have giant errections.
thats what the chan boards are. wich is great to do, altough not in real life.
I dont think the boards will live any longer, the sudden media attention rape that happened a while back was enough to fuck it up.
More on the way
its still dark outside whenever i look outside with my tired eyes, this lifestyle is gonna kill me.
well, its my own fault anyway, it was i who left college.
I just realized how hard it is to take care of your own ass, not having Dad around sure makes me sad, but its for the best.
sounds odd, but ever since my mom left home to work at some White supremacist company, my dad has been alone pretty much.
i was upstairs in the loft jacking it to hentai or playing bad korean MMORPG´s
Its funny, how a young kid can work out, when i was small i was always alone, playing with action figures and whatnot.
playing with action figures turned playing with virtual action figures. i had little to no intrest in girls, quite unhealthy for
the age at the moment. i think it because people had little intrest in me, i had little intrest in them.
But there where times i did saw someone who left a lasting impression.
there where a few, sometimes its just a face or a voice inside my head.
it didnt matter anyway, i was a coward, a mouse trapped in a bear's body.
never did i have the balls to talk to a girl like that.
even if i did talk to her in a social matter, i looked like a complete geek/idiot/loser
only saying hi, and asking things about school work or whatever.
I fail in everything in real life, altough.. just about everything.
the only "skill" i ever had was making people laugh, and since doing things you can do makes
you feel good, i often made jokes that hurt deep inside, but let people ballow the hardest.
often jokes to my dispair of dispair of minority's.
not that iam a socialistic everyone is the same as me type of person, i love burning down everyone who isnt the same
i love laughing about retarded people, middle eastern people, black people, jewish people. etc.
In realism. i would look quite racist if you look at me in the right way.
Hate is something it was present ever after i knew how to piss standing.
i hated allot of things, i hated going to school, i hated physical exercise.
Yeah, the last one shows iam fat. Fatness is maybe a reason why iam so bitter.
I was always teased to shit as a kid, get beat up after school with sticks and what-not.
My parents where quik to decide to get me the fuck out of normal schooling, and placed me into a special private alternative schooling system
These years are all vague to me, i notice that iam forgetting about it quiker and quiker.
i dont know what it is, but for some reason i want to forget everything what was up in the past, neither do i want to know what lies ahead.
God, this is such a horrible feeling, i feel trapped in my own appartment, im a sad 19 year old fatass that never liked being around people.
as every sad soul on this planet, it loves breaking down on others, therefore i got sucked into the world known
as the world wide web, or as faggots call it "the information super highway"
my family got the tubes way back in 1996, where we got a 56k modem, wich bleeped and blooped as i connected to the internet.
Soon i found chatrooms, where getting a girlfriend was friggin easy. As a 12 year old kid, it was amazing to feel being loved online
this was of short notice, i gave one of my "girlfriends" on the web my phonenumber, i got stalked for weeks, and i got beat too. by my dad
guy had full right of this, one thing tough, it WAS a girl. after that i think the girls left the internet.
soon i found out what masturbation was, wich deeply scarred me. after that i fapped every single evening.
i still remember the first thing that i fapped on, i recently found it back. it was a flash, it consisted rape and prostitution between streets for rage characters.
Terrified, thats what i was when i first came, i remember running to the toilet. But since it was pre mature, nothing happened.
when i think back to this, i laugh.
Downloading porn with Kazaa was friggin simple, and i remember looking at every single porn type i could find.
Bestiality, underwater, bondage, EVERTHING. Nothing was too weird.
Weird thing is, i loved it. i loved every single part of it.
Enough about this, lets talk about the internets.
I think the internet consists over 70% cool shit, 20% useless websites and 10% crap
the internet is fucking awesome, you can do everything there.
get e-aids, watch movies, cartoons, learn awesome shit like making bombs and how to rape womens without leaving traces, etc.
Like the scrum iam, i like to hang out near raw sewage. The raw sewage of the internet is simple, Chanwebsites and forums
Theres nothing more fun then to fling shit online to other shit flingers.
image seeing naked men, yelling funny words, running around in shit, throwing shit balls to each other, while have giant errections.
thats what the chan boards are. wich is great to do, altough not in real life.
I dont think the boards will live any longer, the sudden media attention rape that happened a while back was enough to fuck it up.
More on the way