Name: Anonymous 2008-01-04 3:48
My gf broke up with me about 7 weeks ago and i am seriously struggling with depression. it was a very serious relationship and now that i look back i always did suffer from slight depression and this drained her. she issues also didnt help as seeing her down in the dumps made me feel even worse. i talked to her in person about 2 weeks ago and explained what i was goin thru and how i am so sorry that it affected her like this. ii was unaware of what was happening as it was a long distance relationship and she also had many issues of her own so instead of looking at my self for the problem i just blamed what was easy. i told her that i dont blame her for getting rid of me and that i didnt deserve her. she said there may be a chance for us in the future and that she would like to stay friends. i then called her a few days ago and she was very bitter towards me and even somewhat resentful. it hurts so much knowing that she now resents me. i am scared that she will always resent me. The truth is we both had our part in it ending but i blamed myself entirely and told her this. She is now moving on very well and doing alot of positive things. i am very happy for her. i am stuck in a hole that seems to be getting deeper and deeper. i pretty much just lay in bed all day dwelling on all the things i did to end the relationship.