Hi I've been thinking of ending my life for a while now, I've kept this to myself because I've never been able to end my life because of the people that care about me, so now I've been trying to come up with ways that will make it look accidental, I will never make it look like I planned too do It.
I feel so tired!!!! I have really poor social skills, low confidence I've been for counciling for years but never seem to improve on areas that need improvement, I'm so tired I just think it would be so much easier If I wasn't here, I'm fed up with people telling me I look depressed, All I ever really wanted was a girl friend, family, place of my own, but never seems to happen, I'm 25 never even had a girl friend, I've tried so hard to make an effort with people to talk too but I just don't have the social skills.
I get so jealous of people around my age that are getting married, having kids, seem really happy, I would give anything for that life.