Name: Alex 2007-11-16 1:20
If anyone was waiting for me to post again, sorry, I've been busy and tired. Either way, Kayla and I have been just trying to hang outside the house a little more. So far, we've gone to the mall, gone to SkyZone with Mikey, and a game of LazerTag with Jake.
Anyway, I'm going to go ahead and tell you what happened last friday, because that is the last anything "new" has happened between us. So, I started off that day having to go to practice at 8 in the morning, so I got back after kayla and mikey had eaten breakfast. Mikey had told us the previous night that his friend had gone out of town for the weekend, so he'd be hanging out with us the entire day. Either way, first thing I did when I got home was hop in the shower. I really needed it. While I was in there, I didn't really move much. I just stood there, staring into the stream with my eyes closed. I was just kinda fazed out, thinking about various things in my life (Kayla came to mind, but I spent most of my time on other topics). I was like this for a while when I heard someone open the door, then close it. Our shower has a cloth outside on the curtain, so I couldn't tell who it was until after talking.
"Hey Alex." It was Kayla. "Can you hurry up with the shower, please?"
"Why?"
"Cause I know you have a tendency to take up all the warm water when you go first."
I laughed. "Alright. I'll be quick."
She stood there for a little bit. Then said, "Thanks". There was something about the way she said it. I don't know what it was, but it it changed my mood all of a sudden. She started walking out, but I really didn't want her to leave. I heard her open the door.
I made a daring move, that even now, I think I was crazy.
I called out. "Hey Kayla..."
"Yeah?"
"... If are really that worried about it, you can... uh... join... me..."
I heard the door close. "Oh, really? Are you sure there's enough room in there for two?"
There easily was (the shower is more of a bathtub with a shower head in it), so I already knew the answer.
"There is if you want there to be."
"Well... alright, but you can't look."
I heard some shuffling of clothes, and the shower curtain opened. Turned my back to her. Partly because I promised, partly because I didn't want her to see me... well, happy if you will. It was kinda... embarassing.
"Do you want me to scrub your back?" she asked.
I said yes.
She got some soap and a towel (there were two in the shower, and I had one), and rubbed my back. It felt amazing, her fingers running up and down my body. She did this for a while, till she reached around and began to scrub my front, too. I could feel her breasts pressing against my back. I was losing it.
"Alex?" She asked. "Are you masturbating by any chance?"
I was shocked. I wasn't, but I was scrubbing my leg, which I assume she thought was masturbating.
"No."
"Oh... well, why not?"
Before I could respond, she brought her hand down to my waistline, and she wrapped her fingers around my dick. She pulled me around so that I was facing her. I didn't question, I just went with it. I looked at her, put my hands on her cheeks, and leaned in. She was still holding on as we kissed. She let go for a little bit, and she laid down in the tub with her legs spread. I got on my hands and knees over her and put my hand in between her legs, and she put her hand back on my dick. We just rubbed each other like this for a while, enjoying the view of one another. She was just laying there, wet, entirely exposed. Her body was shaking every stroke, and she was biting her bottom lip. I will tell you right now, this is was the hottest thing I've ever been in my life. But I held back.
To be all honest, neither of us really finished each other off. Partly because we felt it would be inappropriate, but mainly because the shower was beginning to get cold. So I got out of the shower and let her finish up. I mean, I feel like I gypped her out of a shower, which was (what I assume to be) her original intention in the first place. I got dressed, waited for her to finish, and talked with her afterwards. We both agreed that what we did was really risky, and that we would never try something like that again. Best said, we've agreed to avoid sexuality in this relationship as much as possible, for obvious reasons. I already know it's going to happen anyway, but at least there are limits now.
After everything was said and done, we spent the rest of the day hanging out with mikey. We played monopoly for a while until it became an argument about who was cheating or not. I still say that it's a little too "convinient" that he gets boardwalk and park place every time. We also went to sonic's for lunch, came back, and played some video games. Aside from the "expirimentation" from that morning, it was just a normal day.
You know, I was reading the thread that Jake made, and I noticed how he said that Kayla and I always seemed to be this close. This got me wondering, maybe I've always been in love with her, but never knew it until now. It makes me question what love really is. All I know is that I have this feeling that I only get when I'm thinking of her. I pains me to know I can't ever truly be with her, but I will always take comfort in knowing she will be with me all she can, and I will do the same for her. I do regret that I fell in love with her, but I have just accepted that it was something that I couldn't control. I just hope that no one else (besides Jake) finds out about our relationship. I tried talking to Kayla about about the whole subject, but she changed the subject immediately. I'm a little panicked by how quickly she avoided it. I may be jumping to conclusions, but it may either mean that she just doesn't want to talk about it (I hope that's the case), or that she's already told someone. But I doubt she'd ever be crazy enough to do something like telling someone else. I'll have to ask her, I guess. I mean, as my sister, she should have no problem telling me things like this, especially considering that we are something more. Maybe it's because we are something more that she can't tell me...
Anyway, I'm going to go ahead and tell you what happened last friday, because that is the last anything "new" has happened between us. So, I started off that day having to go to practice at 8 in the morning, so I got back after kayla and mikey had eaten breakfast. Mikey had told us the previous night that his friend had gone out of town for the weekend, so he'd be hanging out with us the entire day. Either way, first thing I did when I got home was hop in the shower. I really needed it. While I was in there, I didn't really move much. I just stood there, staring into the stream with my eyes closed. I was just kinda fazed out, thinking about various things in my life (Kayla came to mind, but I spent most of my time on other topics). I was like this for a while when I heard someone open the door, then close it. Our shower has a cloth outside on the curtain, so I couldn't tell who it was until after talking.
"Hey Alex." It was Kayla. "Can you hurry up with the shower, please?"
"Why?"
"Cause I know you have a tendency to take up all the warm water when you go first."
I laughed. "Alright. I'll be quick."
She stood there for a little bit. Then said, "Thanks". There was something about the way she said it. I don't know what it was, but it it changed my mood all of a sudden. She started walking out, but I really didn't want her to leave. I heard her open the door.
I made a daring move, that even now, I think I was crazy.
I called out. "Hey Kayla..."
"Yeah?"
"... If are really that worried about it, you can... uh... join... me..."
I heard the door close. "Oh, really? Are you sure there's enough room in there for two?"
There easily was (the shower is more of a bathtub with a shower head in it), so I already knew the answer.
"There is if you want there to be."
"Well... alright, but you can't look."
I heard some shuffling of clothes, and the shower curtain opened. Turned my back to her. Partly because I promised, partly because I didn't want her to see me... well, happy if you will. It was kinda... embarassing.
"Do you want me to scrub your back?" she asked.
I said yes.
She got some soap and a towel (there were two in the shower, and I had one), and rubbed my back. It felt amazing, her fingers running up and down my body. She did this for a while, till she reached around and began to scrub my front, too. I could feel her breasts pressing against my back. I was losing it.
"Alex?" She asked. "Are you masturbating by any chance?"
I was shocked. I wasn't, but I was scrubbing my leg, which I assume she thought was masturbating.
"No."
"Oh... well, why not?"
Before I could respond, she brought her hand down to my waistline, and she wrapped her fingers around my dick. She pulled me around so that I was facing her. I didn't question, I just went with it. I looked at her, put my hands on her cheeks, and leaned in. She was still holding on as we kissed. She let go for a little bit, and she laid down in the tub with her legs spread. I got on my hands and knees over her and put my hand in between her legs, and she put her hand back on my dick. We just rubbed each other like this for a while, enjoying the view of one another. She was just laying there, wet, entirely exposed. Her body was shaking every stroke, and she was biting her bottom lip. I will tell you right now, this is was the hottest thing I've ever been in my life. But I held back.
To be all honest, neither of us really finished each other off. Partly because we felt it would be inappropriate, but mainly because the shower was beginning to get cold. So I got out of the shower and let her finish up. I mean, I feel like I gypped her out of a shower, which was (what I assume to be) her original intention in the first place. I got dressed, waited for her to finish, and talked with her afterwards. We both agreed that what we did was really risky, and that we would never try something like that again. Best said, we've agreed to avoid sexuality in this relationship as much as possible, for obvious reasons. I already know it's going to happen anyway, but at least there are limits now.
After everything was said and done, we spent the rest of the day hanging out with mikey. We played monopoly for a while until it became an argument about who was cheating or not. I still say that it's a little too "convinient" that he gets boardwalk and park place every time. We also went to sonic's for lunch, came back, and played some video games. Aside from the "expirimentation" from that morning, it was just a normal day.
You know, I was reading the thread that Jake made, and I noticed how he said that Kayla and I always seemed to be this close. This got me wondering, maybe I've always been in love with her, but never knew it until now. It makes me question what love really is. All I know is that I have this feeling that I only get when I'm thinking of her. I pains me to know I can't ever truly be with her, but I will always take comfort in knowing she will be with me all she can, and I will do the same for her. I do regret that I fell in love with her, but I have just accepted that it was something that I couldn't control. I just hope that no one else (besides Jake) finds out about our relationship. I tried talking to Kayla about about the whole subject, but she changed the subject immediately. I'm a little panicked by how quickly she avoided it. I may be jumping to conclusions, but it may either mean that she just doesn't want to talk about it (I hope that's the case), or that she's already told someone. But I doubt she'd ever be crazy enough to do something like telling someone else. I'll have to ask her, I guess. I mean, as my sister, she should have no problem telling me things like this, especially considering that we are something more. Maybe it's because we are something more that she can't tell me...